Advantages

Ever since I realized them
for what they are
I've hated advantages
Been caught maiming more than once
just because I knew I had one
Never felt good about that
And I knew you had one over me
right from the start
but I was already headlong,
even before the beginning,
and the momentum was too great

Truth be told
I think about you now
Probably more than I'd like to admit,
but I do like thoughts of you
and for that,
I've concluded I'm not ashamed
because I'm not like the rest
I won't be rendered pathetic
Will not grant the advantage,
and given time,
I'll surprise